
I know I'm blogging a lot about Jared lately, but for having known the guy for only a few months, he has impacted me in such a big way.
Before Jared passed, I thought about him often. I couldn't believe how much energy he had, and how many things he had going on in his life - not to mention the fact that he was the best at everything he did. Frankly, it was exhausting. Every day I would find out something about him that surprised me, and it would make me feel even worse about the level of mediocrity in which I perform various tasks throughout my day.
Day after day, my mediocrity and lack of enthusiasm becomes my life. I would wake up late every morning. I was exhausted. While I was getting ready, I would often think to myself about Jared popping out of bed every AM at 5:30 and working out first thing. How did he have the energy to do that? He was meticulously careful about what he ate, and ridiculously ritualistic about working out. After he worked out, and before he came to work with the rest of us at Adobe, he would frequently have deliveries of Budge's Honey to make at Harmons. He did all of this before I woke up for the day.
He had so much energy in the office. He would sing, dance around, pound his desk when he spoke with enthusiasm, and jump up every chance he could get to write something on his dry-erase board. I literally wondered to myself how he harnessed the sort of energy and passion that he had, and whether he was able to maintain that passion throughout the day with everything he did.
He had a wife and kids who adored him, a side business producing, bottling, and distributing Budge's Honey, was an active member of the LDS church and a youth leader, a keyboardist in the band, "No Limits", an avid health-nut, and a full-time employee at Adobe traveling 2 weeks out of the month.
I found out today at his funeral that he did in fact maintain the same passion about everything he did, right down to each conversation.
His last post on Facebook before he died said, "The GREATEST blessing in my life is my awesome family and incredible friends. I love you ALL!"
As I said before, his last email to the team read, "You guys are the best. I LOVE my job and I LOVE working with you all. PLEASE let me know how I can help and support. (Insert GROUP HUG Here)
JB"
After collecting my thoughts about Jared and attending his funeral today, I conclude that the one characteristic that Jared had that I most want is his PASSION. One person read this poem during their talk, and I felt that it described Jared perfectly:
Credo by Jack London
“I would rather be ashes than dust!
I would rather that my spark
should burn out in a brilliant blaze
than it should be stifled by dry-rot.
I would rather be a superb meteor
every atom of me in magnificent glow
than a sleepy and permanent planet.
The function of man is to live
not to exist.
I shall not waste my days trying to prolong them.
I shall use my time.”
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I'm going to put my heart in it. Whatever I do, I'm going to try and remember to do it with PASSION like Jared would. Whether it be reading a book to my kids, kissing my husband goodnight, or scrubbing the kitchen floor, let my heart and soul wrap around it and carry it out with enthusiasm. Let every atom of me burn in magnificent glow so that I don't waste my days in mediocrity.
Let me remember Jared.